At a crossroad

Still feeling very wide awake after a lenghty tele-conversation with T. Tonight, especially tonight I succumbed to the lonely and missing you bug and for once had a heart to heart talk with T.

As usual, T with capital letters IMPATIENT T refused to speculate any sensible "what if" scenarios. He said I have cried wolves too many times and now he rather not raised his hopes too high. Indeed Cat has been giving false hopes that I WILL go. But I have never committed the time. I reminded him that all my plans are basis on whether he got his promotion, and that only realised on 1st July 2006. ( only 24 days ago)

So you can't blame me for being fickle minded. We all agreed that we will look into the matter seriously after you got you promotion!

Now, dad's illness was something unexpected and threw another perspective in the whole equation.

Life is full of choices. But sometimes, some choices are very difficult to make. There's no eat 2 cakes scenario. Any choice I choose, I lose something.

Things which are practically close to my heart.

Sigh.... Sleepless night again.